*bangs head against wall*
11:36 a.m. on 29 January 2005
AHHHHH!
wow. Ben and I cuddled last night and he kissed me. KISSED ME. My heart raced, my blood stopped, if I had been standing up I would have fainted. That's how you know you like someone. Even now when I think back on it I get the same sensations. It's almost hard to breathe. I like him so much. I dont just want to fool aron diwth him, I want to hold hands and talk all night and play the "you hang up, no you hang up" thing. I want to face these irrational fears that I've held onto for som long and face the fact that I'm falling for someone. HARD.
last night I called him Bob on accident.
he's a very stiff kisser.
I sti;; can't stop loving him.
oh dear god, WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?
wish you well
