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 3:19 p.m. on 10 December 2003

I'm not quite sure what I was thinking. I dont really know why or how it came about. I wouldnt blame them if they never spoke to me again. frankly I'd rather not talk to me. god damnit, im going to cut this fucking depressed shit out. no one wants to hear about it, and Im just making myself worse.

I dont know why, I mean the day was so wonderfous up until after. I shouldnt have done that. Im sorry.

i love all of you, please dont forget that.

its just my mind that needs fixing....



wish you well